Sunday, September 16, 2007
holiday have started,
le i have done 2 things that's skateboarding and
gymming..is what i wanted to do.. but i dunno why i just dun feel happy at all.. i never thought that it so hard to stay happy..i may be laughing but inside of mi is still crying.. i dun wan to hide anymore..
i'm still thinking about the national..why i still hold back.. why i can perform only in training and not in tournament.. whats the point?? why i dun have the courage to do those kick?? i know i can surly hit my opponent why i still...
haiz.. den when
ppl start saying u think u
taekwondo i scare u
ar.. it just killing mi from inside..did i ever use
tkd to
threaten you!!tkd is just a sport..i felt that ppl no need to be so lame like wow u learn tkd ar..they will even ask stupid qus like can u do those kicks that show on tv like jackie chan..can u do this can u do that..u think i superman la!!..even superman is not in real life wat!! if u dunno wat to say den dun say la..make a fool of urself and make mi think that u are such a !@^... like i said tkd is just a sport..do u go to a bball player and waw u bball de ar..u dun think u bball i scare of u ar..btw before i join tkd i join bball de den i have to choose to have one.. coz the day of the training is the same so i choose tkd..hope i din make a wrong choice.. i know my coach have been endure
alot of mi
le.. if she wanna give up on mi den i got nothing to say also..it been so long..still no result i can't blame her for being so straight forward to mi rite..ya my leg is injured so what.. her leg is injured too.. she can do it why can't i?? rite now
I'm thinking where the long lost mi?? where the courage to stand up and fight for myself?? where's the dare devil that
ppl use to called mi?? why am i so easily hurt rite now??
i'm trying to change but it just so hard..
alot of my friend told mi they are disappointed
abt mi.. they said i going bad to worst..
argghh.. i dun like the mi now also..even when i skate wanna do some stun i also hold back
lor..my friend
lester also say is i dun dare to do it.WHY? why am i such a coward!!
